Sunday, November 17, 2013

Dear little peanut,

I'll never forget the day I saw the pink line on that pregnancy test. I won't lie, fear came first. But, fear was quickly followed by extreme happiness. Although I knew you were already there way before I took that test, that moment just made it so real.

I'll never forget the way your Daddy whispered "Hey Bean, this is your Daddy!" Every night before bed and kissed my belly.

I had the best plans to tell our family and friends that you were joining our fam, and that they would have another beautiful baby running around soon.

I was so excited!

 I'll never forget the day when you were so quickly taken away from me. Our morning started of totally normal, you woke me up with extreme nausea and I laid on the couch exhausted until my alarm went off and told me I had no choice but to get up and get ready for work.

We went to work, and my bladder finally decided it couldn't hold any more water. That's when I discovered your sweet little spirit wouldn't be joining our family after all. I decided to finish my day at work anyways, and tell Daddy when we got home.

I got home and Dad cheerfully met me at the door, but he quickly realized something was wrong. I sat him down and told him that you had left us.
Daddy Cried. He was so excited to meet you in the summer. Just as I was..

Our hearts are sad. But we know that Heavenly father has a much bigger plan for you and for us. It just wasn't your time to come to earth yet.
We know that day will come someday, when you are ready to be here.

Daddy and I are ok. Mommy still has some cramps and is tired and sad that you aren't here. But we are clinging to our faith knowing that you will be here when the time is right.
We love you, little Bean. Although our time together was short, it was magical. I would never take it back!
Till we meet again sweet little one!

Your Mommy


  1. Candice. I am so sorry to hear this. My heart is completely broken for you and you brought tears to my eyes, as I'm sure have been brought to yours constantly these past few days. But your confidence in Heavenly Father is phenomenal. I hope that one day, for you, that beautiful spirit will be able to walk this earth and meet you.

  2. Candice I am so sorry.. This breaks my heart. I love you and know that Heavenly Father knows you too. :) I hope all is well. Miss ya girl.


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