Hello.

Holy wackoli (Not even a word- ha!), It Has been forever and a day!

Lets update everyone, yeah?

We're still in Cincinnati. Conner is working hard at UC and I am now working for a family as a nanny. We adopted our cute little {big} puppy on christmas day. He is so fun!

We survived the holidays. Went on a few trips to Washington DC, Virginia- to visit our Nana, and to Chicago. We've got a whopping total of two friends. We love going on adventures. We hate the snow- Winter about killed us. We are now enjoying the slightly warmer days we have been having.

In all honesty there hasn't been anything huge, or grand, or amazing happen the past few months. We are just living life as two crazy newlyweds. But, Its been fun!

Dear little peanut,

I'll never forget the day I saw the pink line on that pregnancy test. I won't lie, fear came first. But, fear was quickly followed by extreme happiness. Although I knew you were already there way before I took that test, that moment just made it so real.

I'll never forget the way your Daddy whispered "Hey Bean, this is your Daddy!" Every night before bed and kissed my belly.

I had the best plans to tell our family and friends that you were joining our fam, and that they would have another beautiful baby running around soon.

I was so excited!

 I'll never forget the day when you were so quickly taken away from me. Our morning started of totally normal, you woke me up with extreme nausea and I laid on the couch exhausted until my alarm went off and told me I had no choice but to get up and get ready for work.

We went to work, and my bladder finally decided it couldn't hold any more water. That's when I discovered your sweet little spirit wouldn't be joining our family after all. I decided to finish my day at work anyways, and tell Daddy when we got home.

I got home and Dad cheerfully met me at the door, but he quickly realized something was wrong. I sat him down and told him that you had left us.
Daddy Cried. He was so excited to meet you in the summer. Just as I was..

Our hearts are sad. But we know that Heavenly father has a much bigger plan for you and for us. It just wasn't your time to come to earth yet.
We know that day will come someday, when you are ready to be here.

Daddy and I are ok. Mommy still has some cramps and is tired and sad that you aren't here. But we are clinging to our faith knowing that you will be here when the time is right.
We love you, little Bean. Although our time together was short, it was magical. I would never take it back!
Till we meet again sweet little one!

Love,
Your Mommy

Family pictures

Last weekend I charged up my old camera (Yes, the crappy point and shoot), and headed out to the woods to take some pictures before the leaves disappeared. It was a beautiful day. A bit on the chilly side, but the sun was shining and I was happy as can  be!

My next challenge was the fact that I don't own a tripod (Defs on my christmas list). So, I had to get creative. You should have seen some of the looks people were giving me trying to hang my camera from trees or shoving it in a crevice I found. I'm pretty sure my husband doubted it as well.

But, they turned out PERFECT!  Of course, my camera is so old that the battery drained within an hour so we didn't get too many. But today I am thankful for a self timer, legs that allow me to run, and creativity. It all made for a beautiful, fun day out with the hubby!

How I pulled it off {The wedding}

I've had a lot of people asking me the details of "how" we did the wedding.

Here is the breakdown

The Venue: 

After looking at a million wedding venues, I knew for a fact that I couldn't afford it, at all. We considered my back yard. But, it was mid summer and nights after the sun goes down are still in the high 90's. Way too hot.

We finally agreed on our churches cultural hall (AKA gym) for the location.
I threw a fit. I cried. I moped. Because those gym's are known for their lack of being pretty. The floors are yellow ish orange, they have basketball hoops and lines. The walls are covered in this ugly twine stuff, and it's really just not pretty.

After a little while, my mother convinced me it was going to turn out fabulous, and it was going to look beautiful. From then on I was determined!

Decorations:

When I first got engaged I realized I had no idea how I wanted to decorate. But I did know one thing - I wanted it to be elegant.

The further I got along, the more I realized elegant wasn't the word. I'm still not sure what to call it.. it was an assortment of lots of styles.

The Fabric Ceiling: I found a company who provided all the stuff to do it. (And they gave me an amazing deal!) But, I can tell you right now, it can be done yourself. It's not even hard! Just need fabric and string!! :)

The table Clothes: I bought fabric from Joann's Fabric (but you can go to any fabric store) And sewed table runners out of it! I also knew I wanted one statement table so I bought one with a cool pattern on clearance from Adams and Company (Also known as Krumpets.. but they closed and are only online now. Boo!)

The Tulle + other fabrics: I bought it online at BB Crafts. They seriously have the cheapest stuff I have ever seen.

The books: Thrifted those suckers. Every single one of them. And I didn't just stick to the DI.. I went to the catholic thrift store and a few other one's I stumbled upon!

The "lamps": I purchased The David Tutera Vellum Lamp shades online. (Amazon is a life saver!) Went to the dollar store, and bought every single wine glass off their shelves. I also found a killer deal on battery operated tea light candles to put in them. Wa- la! Lamps!

The picture Frames: Once again, dollar store saves the day! I bought all of their picture frames one day (they probably hated me after that. Oops! Lol). I went to Home Depot, bought the color of spray paint I wanted, Took the glass out of those suckers, and painted the crap out of all 35 of them! Sent over engagements/dating pictures to Walgreens and popped them in the frames. Super easy!

The gazebo and trellis: I rented them from a company in St. George. Look up companies around you. You would be surprised at how many you will find!! :)

Everything else: I either thrifted or borrowed it. Yep, even those gorgeous bird cages. I found that a lot of friends/family had things I could use. And it took months of yard sale-ing every saturday morning and going to thrift stores multiple times a week, but it paid off in the end!



Other Details:
The dress- I bought from someone else (KSL)

The bridesmaid dresses- An assortment of stores. Mostly forever 21 clearance rack!

The food- Made by yours truly! Bought all my food in bulk from costco! Thank goodness for that fabulous store!

The flowers: Cameo Florist did my bouquet, the bouts, and the corsages. My mother arranged the flowers that went on the tables, and my lovely bridesmaids helped me make their own Bouquets from flowers I bought from costco as well!

The ties-  Tie One On for the older boys. Tiecoon for the younger boys (who can turn down $5 ties?!).

The Makeup- ELF Baby!!

The hair: My beautiful sister! She's so talented!

The Photographer: Ereka over at Elore Photography

Thanks to everyone who helped make the day what it was! I couldn't have done it without you! Whether you cut up fruit for what seemed like forever, helped decorate, or let me borrow things.. you are a saint! Our day was beautiful and better then I could have ever imagined! Thanks so much!!

The little things.

Oh hey, the blog changed!!

I'm starting to get the hang of things and how to make it look (semi) cute.

I still don't get how all you girls have such talent. It takes me hours to make it look decent. Lol.

The leaves are changing here. FINALLY!! It only took like, forever and a day.

I have been sick for what seems like forever.

Today I am attempting to make homemade pretzels. You know, the one's that people share on Facebook.. we'll see if it turns out ok.

Oh! And I got a job. I start monday. Happy day! Our financial woes are going to finally be gone. And it's a good thing, cause our bank account officially has under $50 in it. That came at the perfect time! 

It's the little things guys!

Have a fantastic day!

Fall (ish) activities

A few weeks ago (Yes, I am so far behind, I know!) We went out to loveland, OH to the cutest little pumkin patch. We were probably the only grown adults without children there, but we enjoyed it. 

On a side note, I have been really bad with taking pictures lately. Since my camera broke it's all up to my crappy phone camera to capture everything.

 - anyone know where to find camera's for cheap?-

So we get to the pumpkin patch and it's scorching hot outside. Like, almost 90. What the heck? We opted to not go for the hot apple cider.. and I was totally bummed. But we snacked on caramel apples, pulled pork sandwiches, and fresh lemonade. So good! Of course I have no pictures of any of that.

We walked around the farm, and discovered they had a field of sunflowers! You better believe I stomped right on through it to the middle of it. I was excited till I saw all the bee's.. and then one landed on my face. Que freaking out. Ha ha!

So we hurried and took some pictures and ran out. 

We did the corn maze, went to the petting zoo, and then picked out our pumpkin.

Of course my husband picked out the heaviest one. 40 pounds and $15 later we had a pumpkin.

It was such a fun day.

We aren't very festive. In fact, we have absolutely  no plans for Halloween tomorrow. I think we are gonna just buy some chocolate, cuddle up, and watch hocus pocus.
Sounds like a great plan, right?

Our wedding: Our reception

Our reception was so nice and relaxing (Yes relaxing!). I expected way more people to show up, but it was a big travel weekend and a lot of people couldn't make it. We just had a very slow steady flow of people come and go. After 45 minutes of the greeting line I decided I just wanted to walk around and talk! That was probably my favorite part of the night, considering I am a social butterfly. Finally, someone pulled me aside and was like "You only have an hour left. You better get going with the cake cutting and dancing!" I was like oh yeah! Haha.

So we cut the cake. And I got Conner good! We laughed hysterically for a minute then all the sudden WHAM! He smashes it right into my face. Good times, good times. My best friend caught my bouquet after my sister halfway caught it and threw it like it was a hot potato or something. Everyone found that hilarious.
If you notice in half of my dancing pictures with my dad AND Conner, I am laughing. Yes, I married a man that makes me laugh just as much as my dad. While dancing they both felt the ribbing in my dress and said "Do you have cardboard under your dress?" I laughed pretty hard.

After that, I just danced with my sisters, my little brother, and slow danced some more. Then I just kept socializing. I decided I was ready to be out of my dress, so my sisters took me to get out of mine, and I got all my stuff in the car so Conner and I could leave. That was probably the weirdest part of the day - Packing a bag for a boy as well as myself. It just was surreal.

I walked out to Conner waiting for me and everyone was already outside getting ready for our exit. I really wish I would have told people goodbye and hugged them - since that was the last moment I saw my best friend and my big sister. That was the last time I would see them for almost a year. It was so weird.

Our exit pictures turned out dumb because I bought the wrong kind of sparklers and these were like sparklers on crack and were INSANE. I thought we were going to catch on fire.

It was a great day. It was perfect and I am so happy to be Mrs. Wolfe!